theres no turning back now

i booked my flight today. until i actually made the payment, it didnt completely seem real. but once the transaction went through, the nerves began to set in. it really started hitting me that i would be gone for a whole year, in a country in which i do not know the language. i know it will help to be anticipating some of the homesickness and problems that i will be facing, knowing everything that i will miss and having the internet to stay in touch, but the tough spots will be inevitable.

i was describing it today as a rollercoaster. in the beginning, it will all be new and exciting, especially since my first three weeks will be in the tourist hotspot of phuket, known for its gorgeous and exotic beaches. in fact, im sure that will make it seem even more like a vacation. then ill probably hit bottom, start missing people and get really depressed about how much time i have left. but then, since i will not be able to change it, i will hopefully start enjoying it again, and making the most of this amazing experience i have now officially signed on to.